I would like to request healing for myself.
I hate feeling this way 
- please help if you can
Dear Stella,
there is a way out of your current situation, believe me.
Let me send you some reiki, ok?
Please, don't resist and just let reiki in when you feel you are ready.
Probably some suppressed emotions will surface, but hey!, after every rain there comes the bright sun again, yes?
I would also suggest you, if I may, to talk about your fears with your partner, friends, parents, with us here.
Don't turn your back on emotions that are causing depression. If you so choose, don't fight these emotions. You say you hate feeling this way. Ok. I understand. But nevertheless, let these feelings out.
Cry if you need to, let it all out. Your baby will be much much better off if and when you express all that is holding you back.
As I said, reiki (for emotional healing) on the way for you, dear Stella.
n.
