Im being honest my friend not at all manipulative

You do exactly what resonates well with you at this time.
This is my reply for this thread about clinging to Symbols or else;
Usui attained the flow! Isn't this enough for you to see the way? Usui did not have symbols, he fasted and meditated. Why does one do this? To get attuned to energy or to for once and for all disipate the actual trouble maker, the egocentred self, the one craving for so many things.
Reiki is a practice a system not some outside energy, some specialy labeled energy which is ONLY available to those being "attuned" :-) what a bunch of crap ;-)
These teaching such nonsense are only creating more suffering in those they teach. There is no energy flow where ego-self runs the show because energy Is in the very Now and ego self lives in the past in the land of fear (desire and aversion).
Am I wrong? Please test this for your self please :-)
Be a friend and test this by sitting with your very self and see if you can sit in peace with your self just for today just for an hour. Do this for 21 days every day just for today for an hour. Do not perform any rituals just sit and be aware of all that is happening in your mind.
Please do so and report back, we all might learn something genious out of this :-)
Take care friends and remain mindful remain relaxed.
This is how i see it you do what you please. Sharing experience is all we can do all the rest is just mind boggling

May you be happy